My head is stuck in the clouds.

And I can't really quite see.

I'm giving him a chance, though he's not great enough to see it and seize that opportunity. I've done the work. I grew some balls. Is it time to move on? We'll just be friends? I guess? I might have already spotted someone else. I'm going to a party in a month.

I started a new school. So far...in class I'm doing well. Online is different story. We'll see how that goes next week.

Something Tells Me

I should take a chance.

Thank God for my friends.

Which is exactly what I prayed thanks for today at church. I talked to a few people about this guy I recently had met and things went quickly, but I was suspicious. And to some people, it wasn't worth it to tell me the truth about this guy. A good couple of friends told me the real deal about this guy. Ugh, people are such pigs. I can't stand it. I was so angry tonight. I saw it coming, too. Whatever. Lesson learned. It could have been worse. We only made out and he was touchy. I'm done. I should've stuck with my gut. One of my few regrets. I've learned.

Tonight

I'll go at it alone

A lot has happened.

1. I graduated from community college. I have an Associate's Degree in Communications. I like my degree. I've met some pretty cool and interesting people. I've learned some things. I learned that I need to follow my gut and to speak up. I'm still trying to get used to it. I'm on my way to DeVry and I want to go into graphic and multimedia design.

Summer is here and I'm just relaxing a lot. This week I saw a lot of people that I don't normally see so that was fun. Hopefully I'll be seeing more people.

I went to a Steampunk convention a week ago, and it kinda gave me a different outlook on some people. It was so cool that a good majority of the attendees were middle aged. Everyone was really nice and honest. I liked it a lot. I didn't feel judged or felt like I needed to impress anyone.

One question?
When is it my turn?

Tomorrow is the Day.

Graduation day. Granted, it's only from community college but, it's something. At first I wasn't sure if I wanted to go to the ceremony but I decided to go. I want to celebrate. It'll be fun and my friend will be walking also, so that should be nice :)

One thing I would like to talk about. Is me.
One of my best friend's exes was talking to me last night and all of a sudden, he full frontal assaulted me with flirts. I don't even want to know what would've happened if we were face to face. I had a tough time ONLINE. Bottom line, i told him he was straight forward and that I have some of the greatest friends.

I Shouldn't Have To

No one should, but I have to. So does my family. And I know others deal with it too.
My mom moved money around to a new bank and now is accusing a man at the bank of stealing her money. That is some serious accusation. My mom started taking the right amount of medication finally. Two weeks ago, and she was getting better but now is getting worse. She wants the police involved and is saying things that aren't making sense. Last night my brother called me while I was at work, I thought she had gotten hurt and went to the hospital. She was having an "episode" and my brother was telling me he had to escape. She still thinks she's not sick. I shouldn't have to be afraid of my own mother. But I am.

But I'm a trooper. I stick it out. I do what I have to do. I don't back down. And even if I have things I need to do and deal with; it might add on but it makes the outcome better and more rewarding.

I haven't had a mother in years.

I just want to feel stable.